2011-04-13T11:06:00.000-07:00

Kurt Cobain

1967-1994

(BIPOLAR)

TOOK HIS OWN LIFE

2011-01-31T08:37:00.000-08:00

Is The Truth Being Manipulated?
You Can Find It Within You

The Truth Will Set You Free
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My Mantra, My Quest
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The More I Learn,
The More I Realize
Not Just Of How Ignorant
A Person I Still Am,
But Of How Neophyte
My Existence
So Far Has Been,
Presently Is,
And Will Always Be,
As So MuchBlossoming Knowledge
Awaits For Me To Reap,
As I JourneyThrough Life’s Fields Of Green.

I Also Embrace
With Eagerness,
Joy And Anticipation
The Immensity
Of The Never-ending Pursuit
In Search Of
The Grand Intellectual Holly Grail.

So I Will Forever
Carry As My Standard
A Never-ending Voracity
And Sense Of Curiosity
For The DailyAnd Yet To-be-discovered,
And Un-borrowed
Mother Lodes Of Enlightenment,
Golden Nuggets
Of Knowledge All,
Which Shall Be CastInto Ducats of Wisdom
For Me To Savor And Save
In My Ever-expanding,
Albeit Bottomless,Pouch Of Eruditeness.

No-Matter How Infinite
Of A Road I Do Travel,
Not A Day Goes By
During WhichI Will Not Have Acquired
Some Of ThosePrecious Omniscient Riches,
Which I,
Just As The RestOf Mortal Humanity
Crave So Much For,
And Was Engendered
With An Entitlement To Possess.

Friend,I Bid You To Join Me
In The Noblest
Pilgrimage Of All,
The Trek For Knowledge.

This Road Will Lead Us
To The Pristine Repository
Of The Most Critical
And Most Fundamental
Of All Human Needs,
The Discovery
And Therefore Privity
Of Absolute Truth.
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JMdlM

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My Creator,

I Am The Lowest

Of Your Many Sinful Sons.

I Feel Destined

To Perish In Evil’s Grasp,

And I Feel Sentenced

To Suffer Eternally

In The Precincts

Of The King Of Darkness,

While Rotting Away

In The Blazes Of Infinite Hell.

I Confess This To You

As I See How My Life

Has Been Disgraced,

Despised, And Squandered,

As I Have Allowed

The Legions Of Warlords

And Disciples Of Satan

Take Control Of My Mind

As Well As My Soul,

While Tearing Away

My Afflicted And Weakened Humanity,

And Have Made Of Me

A Conscript And Instrument Of Evil.

There Lies Anger, Apathy, Arrogance,

Contempt, Criticism, Degeneration,

Disdain, Disloyalty, Egotism, Envy,

Gluttony, Greed, Grudge,

Impiety, Infidelity, Insolence,

Jealousy, Lewdness, Materialism,

Pride, Resentment, Scorn, Selfishness,

Spite, Ungratefulness, Vanity,

In My Disturbed Soul,

As Well As In My Worthless Heart

As Well As In My Miserly Mind,

Causing Me

Unrepentant Shame, Deep Grief,

Indescribable Frustration

And Deep Depression,

Feelings,Which Have Thoroughly Disturbed

My Human Senses

And Have Thrust MeTowards

This Unbridled Madness.

While They Tear Apart

The Fabric Of My Very Existence,

And Expose The Weakness

Of My Condemned Soul.

As Much As I Try,

I Cannot Uproot

These Demonic Feelings Out.

For My Evil Knows No Limit, My Lord,

As I Have Denied You,

Not Only Three Times,

But Three Times Three Times,

Always Blaspheming Your Holy Name.

I Know That As A Christian

I Should Commend Myself

To Your Mercy.

I Should Calm Down,

Collect Myself,

And While Shielded

Behind The Faith Of My Birth,

Drive Away Such Vile Feelings

And Sinful Temptations

From Within Me,

And Render Before You

This Tormenting And Relentless Pain,

Plus This Deranged And Wild Madness,

Feelings, Which Burn

The Innermost Recesses Of My Gut,

As My Humble And Repentant Sacrifice,

And Plead That You Soothe And Heal Me.

But These Raw Emotions

Keep Running Out Of Control, Lord,

As I Feel Every Remnant Of Energy,

Strength And Will Power

Escape From This Human Flesh,

All So Vital To Combat And Appease

This Fury Which Torments Me So.

Therefore,

I Ask You, My Lord,

To Help Me Overcome

This Terrible Crisis,

By Casting Away The Demons

Which Have Taken Over My Life.

Grant Me The Visit

And Ardent Healing Power

Of The Holy Spirit,

Which,With Its Flaming Sword

In Its Grip,While Guided And Entrusted

By Your Holy Hand,

May Pierce My Soul

With Its Fiery Blazes,

And Endow It

With Infinite Christian Peace,

Thereby BestowingSerenity To My Mind,

As Well As The Permanent Suture

Of My Wounded Soul.

It Is My Wish, Lord,

That You Become

My North,

South,

East

And West,

So This Lamb

Can No-Longer Go Astray

From Within

The Midst Of Your Grace.

I Ask YouTo Snatch Me

From Lucifer’s Grasp, Lord,

By Purifying And Illuminating

This Repulsive And Somber Soul.

I Beg Of You

ThatYou Send Me A Sign,

A Signal,

An Epiphany.

Reveal Yourself To Me, Lord;

Convert Me!

Do Not Let Me Eat

From Such A Sour Tray,

Nor Drink

From Such A Bitter Cup Anymore!

Please, Satisfy My Hunger

And Quench My Thirst For Salvation

By Feeding Me

From The Manna

Of Your Holy Flesh,

And Hydrating Me

From The Fountain

Of Your Holy Blood.

Bestow Upon Me

My Permanent Conversion,

And Make Of Me

A Witness And Herald

Of Your Good News.

As It Is My Most Fervent Wish, Lord,

That You Grant Me

Eternal Refuge

Within The Womb And Bosom

Of Your Holy Church.

I Beg All This Of You,My Lord,

For The Sake Of My Loved Ones,

Of Whom I Have Made

Sewers Of My Repugnant

And Deranged Behavior,

And For Me,

Your Lost,

Suffering,

Wounded,

And Contrite Lamb,

Now Your Anxious Servant,

Amen

JMdlM
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GO GO FORTH, SINNER!

Go Forth Sinner,

And Do Not Ever Look Back,

Unless You Have

The Inner-Fortitude To Behold

The long Trail

Of Damage,

Disappointments,

Failures

And Pain,

Which Have left

Your Indelible Footprints

Throughout Your Miserable Life,

Hence Displaying

The Wreckage,

Which that life became,

One For All The World To Behold.

But If You Do Turn Around

In Remorse,

And Do Not Wish
To Be 'Once Again
Turned Into A Pillar Of Salt,

Then Do Go Forth,

And Reverse
Your Life's Mistakes
Into Holy Virtues

And Love
For God Our Father And Creator,
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Convert
The Old 'Beast' Within Me
Into A Clarion-Carrying
Herald Whose Holy Mission
Is That Of Proclaiming
The Beauty, Goodness And Love
We May Still Enjoy,
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For It Is Never Too Late
To Change And Spread Fresh Seeds

Of Faith, Love And Hope,
Thus Planting
The Holy Promise
Of A Better Life
In This World,
And The Reward Of Joining
Our Holy Lord And Father
In His Pristinely And
Perfect Heavenly Realm.
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JMdlM

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Our Trek Through Mortal Life:
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Our Mortal Life In This World

Is At Best Purgatory

And At Worst Hell.

Once We Accept Such Premise,

We Shall Be Able To Understand

The Reason For The Endless Suffering

Which We Constantly Bear,

Reason Which Also Clarifies

The True Meaning Of Carnal Life.

Having Established Such Truth,

We Can Accept The Following Additional Truth:

Which IsThat Once We Have Endured

Such Existence,

And Our SentenceIn This World

Has Reached Its Inevitable End,

Our Human Bodies

Shall Be Discarded,

And Our Souls Shall Forever

Thereon Be Bereft Of Pain,

And Thereon Shall Eternally Be Satiated

With Peace And Joy.

For You See,

God, Our Father,The One Truly

And Only God,

Is NeitherA God Of Fear,

Nor A GodOf Eternal Punishment.

God, Our Father

Is A God Brimming With Love

And ForgivenessTowards Us,

His Children.

Our FatherLoves Us Unconditionally,

Just As We Mortals

Love Our Very Own.

So Just As We Treat

Our Own Children,

He Would Never Harm Us,

His Offspring, Eternally,

Lest He Suffered

Even More Pain Himself.

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JMdlM
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Go Forth

And TurnWorldly Beastly Sins Into Hope:

You Wretched Poor Excuse Of a Man,

Go Forth And Do Not Look Back,

Unless You Can Find

The Inner Fortitude

To Turn And Behold With Repentance

The Long Trail Of

Damage,

Disappointment,

Failure,

Pain

And Shortcomings

Which HaveYour Indelible Footprints,

Hence Displaying

The Wreckage

Which Has BeenYour Sorry Existence,

For The Entire World To See!

Go Forth Then,

And TurnYour

Blunders,

Errors,

Mistakes

And Selfish Neglect

Into Virtuous And Repentant

Reparations,

And Convert

Other Similarly Dammed Beasts Amongst Us,

Into Glorious And Vociferous Heralds,

EntrustedWith The Holy Mission

To ProclaimTo The Rest Of The World

The Beauty,

Faith,

Goodness,

Hope,

Joy

And Peace,

Which The Still Innocent Souls

May Yet Attain And Enjoy,

As You Spread

Throughout This Fertile Land

Those Very Same Seeds

Of Beauty,

Faith,

Goodness,

Hope,

Joy

And Peace,

While Planting

The TrueAnd Heavenly Promise

Of An EternalAnd Better Life

Beyond This World!

Yes,You Wretched Poor Excuse Of a Man,

Do Go Forth

And Do Not Look Back,

As You May Still Make Reparations

For Your Long Trail

Of Damage,

Disappointment,

Failure,

Pain

And Shortcomings,

By Repenting

And Entrusting Your Life

In The Hands Of The Lord.

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JMdlM
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Short Mantra:

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The More I Learn,
The More I Realize
How Ignorant I Still Am,
And Of The Limitless Knowledge
There Is Still To Be Acquired.

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Mantra Corta:

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Mientras Más Aprendo,
Más Cuenta Me Doy
De Lo Ignorante Que Aun Soy,
Y De La Sabiduría Ilimitada
Que Aun Me Espera Por Adquirir.

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Ma Petite Mantra :

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Le Plus J'Apprends,
Le Plus Je Comprendre
Combien Je Suis Encore Ignorant,
Et De Le Savoir Illimitée
Que Je Dois Encore Acquérir.

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JMdlM
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About Love:

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It Is Better To Have Loved And Lost
Than Never To Have Loved At All.

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Es Mejor Haber Amado Y Perdido,
Que No Haber Amado Jamás.

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Il Est Meilleur Avoir Aimé
Et Avoir Perdu
Que N'Avoir Jamais Aimé.'

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Alfred Lord Tennyson

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Character and Good Values:

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Doing The Right Thing,
Particularly While No One Is Watching.

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Carácter y Buenos Valores:

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Hacer Lo Correcto,
Particularmente
Mientras Nadie Nos Observa.

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Caractère Et Bonnes Valeurs :

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Faire Ce Qui Est Correcte,
Particulièrement
Pendant Que Personne
Ne Nous Regarde Pas.

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J.C. Watts

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God's Limitless Love:

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God Loves His Children Too Much
To Punish Us Forever.

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El Amor Ilimitado de Dios:

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Dios Ama A Sus Hijos Demasiado
Para Jamás Castigarnos Infinitamente.

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L'Amour Illimité De Dieu :

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Dieu Aime Trop Ses Enfants
Pour Nous Punir infiniment.

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JMdlM

The Only Prayer
Which Includes Our Griefs,
Wishes, And Needs
Has Only Four Words :
Lord, Grant Me Peace.

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La Única Oración
Que Incluye Nuestras Angustias,
Deseos Y Necesidades
Contiene Solo Tres Palabras :
Señor, Concédeme Paz.

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La Seule Prière Qui Inclut
Notre Chagrins, Vœux Et Besoins
A seulement Sinq Mots :
Seigneur, Accordez-Moi La Paix.

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JmdlM

My Odyssey To A Higher 'Plain' Of Consciousness